[Poem] Until

I didn't know darkness til the day sky gloom
I didn't know color til flowers start to bloom
I didn't know motion til the ball stopped rolling
I didn't know time til clock stopped ticking

I didn't know joy til I see a child's eyes
I didn't know child's play til I biked on rainy days
I didn't know danger til I poked on a bee hive
I didn't know friendship til one afternoon in '85

I didn't know joy til the baby on her own stands
I didn't know pain til a folded flag on widow's hands
I didn't know about sacrifice til the first cry of a new born
I didn't know about grief til a mother lost her unborn

I didn't know how long the travel was til the view of the vast of the ocean
I didn't know how far was the distance til speck of dunes in Africa
I didn't know about slavery til man's liberation
I didn't know about a mock-up til I checked out for a replica

I didn't know the taste of freedom til one's parole
I didn't know there's missing til one is whole
I didn't know how to start over til it ended
I didn't know about the real deal til got defrauded

I didn't know blessings til pockets were empty
I didn't know life's simplicity til its complexity
I didn't know how far was chasm til death in eternity
I didn't know true love til that Man hang on the tree

Truth be told we are full when we are empty
We're complete when we have none exactly
We're clothed when we lay bare too
'Cause a lot of things we think we know until we do


-mmp 13Jan2015 11:13pm

[Blog] Waiting NOT in vain

When you're a 33-year old woman, single and working your ass out, people will ask you if you ever have a plan of getting married or worse, if you're gay. Either way, I wouldn't want to answer any of them. But truly, I'm not worried because God has His plan for me.

Yesterday morning, I was watching a Filipino flick and was totally glued to the tube. However shallow the plot was, I couldn't care coz I was enjoying it. Hey, don't laugh at me but there was a realization I got from it. It was a story of a 30-year old woman who was in dire search for someone to marry after a surprise break-up in front of their house with her boyfriend-catching-his-time-before-going-to-work and after seeing all of her friends getting married. In the movie, she has met some bad guys but of course it ended with a happy ever after. In it, there weren't good display of what a woman should be like to the extent that it looked cheapo. Along the way I asked myself, am I feeling like that? Do I act like that?


Many times in my 33 years that I tried creating that perfect blueprint of my love life. I fell in and out of love several times. Broke theirs and my heart. Engaged and disengaged. And now, I'm still single.

Yes, I am single and am not seeing someone. I have this virtual check list that has everything that I am looking for in a man and a relationship. Did I ever worry? Yes, I did but look at Matthew 6:27 "Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" Yeah, why should I worry when God knows His plans for me - to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)


Yesterday afternoon, in between my favorite chore, I checked on a magazine show where a celeb was being interviewed after a hurtful break up with her short lived marriage. She had put herself to the limelight while her marital demise on spotlight. I sympathize with her and totally agree that women should stand tall after a terrible fall. This woman had been in search for a happy ending but unlike the woman in the movie, hers was not a happy ending. Was I ever in the zone of desperation that I will get in a relationship with just anyone? Did I ever compromise my standard and values just to update my Facebook status?

If you know and believe that He and His plans are trustworthy, you will never end up with such tragedy. I do not make fun of anyone's bad situation but the bottom line - you can never rush love and you should never go ahead of God's plans. He is always on time - never late, never ahead of us. The problem is that we love what He has in His hands for us but we do not trust His calendar. Learn to wait patiently til His proper time comes. Waiting should never slow us down; it should never preempt what we're supposed to do, instead, we must actively wait. We do what we are supposed to do, bloom where you are planted and excel in everything that's on hand. Doing so, there will never come a day that you say you regret that you waited. Waiting on the Lord is never in vain when your trust is on Him...and those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. (Isaiah 40:31)

That's a promise.

[Poem] Ode to my Lover III

My face is slump
My body is weak
My mind worries
My heart is weary.
I mumble at every word
I stumble at every step
I juggle through the day
I struggle every minute.
My day is yet completed
And at times I feel defeated
For I am not connected
To the One had me created.
O God listen to me
Hear every word I speak to Thee
Search my heart, O Lord
And see why desire is there no more.
Lord, I wanna find You
I wanna see Your face once more
I wanna walk with You my dear
I wanna make melodies with You once again.
I want Your smile warm just as a sunny day
I want Your voice just as a song so sweet
I want a love just like Your love
I want everything, just all of You.
Meet me Lord, meet me
Encounter me as I want of Thee
My heart and flesh cry out to You
And be the Lover that my soul longs.

Allow me to stay in Your warm embrace
Get drowned in Your mercy
Swim in the sea of Your grace
And just get lost in Your unending love.

-mmp 01march2013 7:30am

[Poem] Love in six measures

I

My soul's dried up
Like a flower in the desert
My soul thirsts for Your presence
That only You can quench.
Let me drink in the cup of Your goodness
Get me drowned in the sea of Your greatness
End my dry season O God
And let Your love rain over me.

II

A life I lived in lack
Is a life of lack in You
Where art thou O God
I long to dwell in Thy presence.
I now stand before You, Lord
I stand in awe of You
For the distance has weakened my core
So I run towards the fortress of my soul.

III

My eyes lathered in world's wickedness
As I long for a perfect kinda thing
Yet I found nothing but emptiness
And walk away with the feel of brokenness.
Show me Your glory my God
Shine Your face towards me
I long for Your presence O God
For my whole being is crying out for You.

IV

I run far and so fast
Away from the light of my God
I hasten til the end of it all
Thinking I really can be far from my Lord.
Wherever I am, You're there
Wherever I want to be, You'll be there
For You are everywhere I go
There's no escaping Your stretch from east to west.

V

I'm sold on life's mediocrity
I resigned to the plans of greatness
I resort to take my own route
And steer to a life I take on my own.
But Your plans are better than mine
So grand, so huge, so greatly divine
Why should I bother to question Thee
When my future is sure and O so Thine?

VI

My security is in You
I am bound to greatness of Your view
My tomorrow is set in Your eyes
So I long to look straight to Your eyes.
You're divine, I couldn't stand it
I don't deserve to have a sight of Your face
Your word's enough for me to believe and hold on to You
Only by faith and not by sight.

-mmp 2march2013 11:10am

[Poem] A song for my Lover

You are like the air that I breathe
You are like the rain to a tree
You are like the current in the sea
You are like the sun after the rain
you are like the rainbow after a storm
You are like the water that quenches my dried up soul
You are like the wind that blows through my woes and sorrows
You are like the song that my feet wants to dance with
For YOU are everything that is good to me.
For YOU are everything that my whole being cries out for more.
For YOU are the one I long for more.
YOU are everything that I am.
YOU are my One and everything.

- mmp 26february2013 4:26pm

[Poem] Ode to my Lover II

While I was a asleep
I felt You watching and staring at me
Then I feel Your warm kiss on my cheek
That sends tingle to my spine.
I awoke and heard You said hello
I got up and You embraced me so tightly
As the cool breeze welcomes me
To another great and brand new day.
I went down the stairs
And I saw You prepared me Your best.
We sat down and shared your feast
And we talked just about anything.
The day went as it should
Right now, You're walking me down the road
You're walking by it to protect me
And to assure of my safety the whole time.
Throughout the day, You send me messages
And I'm at my most joyful to receive them.
Your sweet, kind and thoughtful words
Made my day complete.
There's nothing else in this world
I would want to spend my day with
But with the Only Lover of my soul
You are my best.
You are nothing like the rest.
You are nothing compared to any.
You are the kind of love I ever want.
You are everything my soul longs.
You are the water that quenches my thirst.
You are all that completes everything in me.
You are the Lover of my soul.
You are the Love of my life.
You are the air that I breathe.
The music to my ears
and I am Yours forever.
I love You, Jesus!

-mmp 17february2013 3:50pm

[Poem] Ode to my Lover I

I feel his look, his gaze at me
Like a dagger that pierces through my core.
I have to guard my heart from its wickedness
And won't let anyone sweep me away with his suave.
I fell and fainted
For I failed to guard myself with Shield.
I melt like iceberg
And flowed like nowhere to go.
I looked up, cried to the heavens
And His arms stretched out for me
'You are Mine', He said, 'and I am yours'
Such assurance that no one can top.
His suave may sweep me off my feet.
His look, his gaze may melt such ice in me.
O Lord I say that with my own strength I cannot
But with You I can stand firm.
Take me away, O Lover of my soul
Away from the pit I am falling down to
Love me like never before
Pursue me as I've never been
Dance with me with my two left feet
Stare at me with lover's eyes
Sing me Your sweetest and take my breath away.
My Love, my Security, my Assurance, my Lover
My One and Only.
I love you, Jesus

- mmp 16february2013 2:00pm