Lord I lift my head up
To the heavens I raise my prayers up.
With my heart to You I shall sing,
All for You I will bring.
Listen to my voice oh God
WIth ears open, hear me, my Dad.
As Your child coming before You
With joy in my heart only for You.
I come running with glee
Towards You I bring indeed.
I beseech You, my God, my Father
Always leave me in awe of Your wonder.
Showing posts with label heart. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heart. Show all posts
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
[Poem] I bleed my heart to You
Oh God I ask for forgiveness
Let my heart go boast with less
Of myself I speak and soar
But You shall I exalt all more.
Let Your Spirit come upon me
So I can be guided indeed
With only the light that comes from Thee
That tears down the wall of darkness and greed.
Oh God please reign in me
Reign in my soul and in my deeds
For You are the one who can calm me
In distress Your word feeds.
Let my heart go boast with less
Of myself I speak and soar
But You shall I exalt all more.
Let Your Spirit come upon me
So I can be guided indeed
With only the light that comes from Thee
That tears down the wall of darkness and greed.
Oh God please reign in me
Reign in my soul and in my deeds
For You are the one who can calm me
In distress Your word feeds.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
[Blog] Forgive and Forget
Amidst everything that is happening these days, I lift everything up to God that He will change the hearts of these people to fulfill the command that He said in the Scripture --- "Love one another as I [Jesus] have loved you." People were hurt, are hurting and maybe will continue to be hurt and be at that state until they step out IN FAITH saying that they will FORGIVE, MOVE ON and let GOD make His way into their hearts. I am hurt that seeds of division are planted in their hearts but I am sure that God is even more hurt seeing His children not loving and forgiving each other. FORGIVENESS is ALWAYS a conscious effort and decision to do when we say that we love God.
Let me just share some points about FORGIVENESS in the recently concluded T4V in VCF Pioneer on what the Bible says about Forgiveness.
(1) Forgiveness is our DUTY and there are no limitations on how we should forgive or how many times. Forgiveness is our duty because without it, there's a root of bitterness that will grow in us that will cause trouble to a lot of people [Hebrews 12:15]
(2) There are no limitations on who we should forgive or how many times. It is mentioned in the Bible that we must forgive our brothers and sisters not seven times but seventy-seven times. [MATT 18:21-22] It's so easy to count the number of times we have forgiven someone who had oppressed us but have we thought of counting the number of times we have been forgiven by Our God? Who are you to count them as you do this for your brothers or sisters?
(3) If we do not forgive, we will not be forgiven. The Bible said in Mark 11:25 that: "And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
Yes, it's so hard to forgive the people who hurt us and it's our natural tendency to revenge but God promised that He will avenge for us and will curse those who have cursed us. He also instructed us not to revenge but leave room for God's wrath. [Romans 12:19] You may say that you know these already and the nitty-gritty of this word but why do we actually do this? We do this because this is exactly what Jesus did for us and even was sent here by God the Father to wash away our sins. Also, since we are claiming that we have Christ in our hearts, we must forgive because God has forgiven us in Christ! Need I say more about forgiveness?
Many of you might ask how we forgive from the heart. According to the T4V as well, the following are the steps:
(1) Acknowledge the hurt.
(2) Resolve to forgive.
(3) Pray to release forgiveness to those who have hurt you and release blessings in their lives
Many of us got stuck on the 1st step that's why we cannot release forgiveness in our heart. There are two more steps and it takes FAITH in GOD to move to the next one. We must start and finish this strong so we’ll have peace in our hearts. Many of you might react: "WHAT?!? She already hurt me, I forgave her and now I am blessing her?!? No way!" --> This mentality is so wrong! The title of this blog is "FORGIVE and FORGET" and a lot of us are guilty of just doing one of these two words. This is not alien to me because at one point in time, I chose one and did not mind the other one then I say I moved on. NO! You cannot forgive if you have not forgotten what she did as well as you cannot forget is you do not forgive. It's hard to forget but pray that God takes it away from your heart. When we resist to forgive and forget, our hearts harden thus it becomes stone in the process but the Lord said "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh." [Ezekiel 36:26] You cannot say that you have moved on but say that you do not forget. You SHOULD and MUST forget once you release forgiveness from your heart.
Sigh… I am just sad with the sight of these things happening within my yard and I am accountable to God that I will guide them properly and will enlighten them as they go through this battle and come out victorious still after the storm. Today, make that conscious decision. You will put this issue to rest; leave them alone and let them do their thing; cry out loud for one last time; stop pointing fingers to who is at fault and who we think is the victim. REMEMBER: If you point your finger to someone, the other 4 are pointing back at you. PRAY for forgiveness and compassion and LET GOD ARISE in the middle of this turmoil.
Let me just share some points about FORGIVENESS in the recently concluded T4V in VCF Pioneer on what the Bible says about Forgiveness.
(1) Forgiveness is our DUTY and there are no limitations on how we should forgive or how many times. Forgiveness is our duty because without it, there's a root of bitterness that will grow in us that will cause trouble to a lot of people [Hebrews 12:15]
(2) There are no limitations on who we should forgive or how many times. It is mentioned in the Bible that we must forgive our brothers and sisters not seven times but seventy-seven times. [MATT 18:21-22] It's so easy to count the number of times we have forgiven someone who had oppressed us but have we thought of counting the number of times we have been forgiven by Our God? Who are you to count them as you do this for your brothers or sisters?
(3) If we do not forgive, we will not be forgiven. The Bible said in Mark 11:25 that: "And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
Yes, it's so hard to forgive the people who hurt us and it's our natural tendency to revenge but God promised that He will avenge for us and will curse those who have cursed us. He also instructed us not to revenge but leave room for God's wrath. [Romans 12:19] You may say that you know these already and the nitty-gritty of this word but why do we actually do this? We do this because this is exactly what Jesus did for us and even was sent here by God the Father to wash away our sins. Also, since we are claiming that we have Christ in our hearts, we must forgive because God has forgiven us in Christ! Need I say more about forgiveness?
Many of you might ask how we forgive from the heart. According to the T4V as well, the following are the steps:
(1) Acknowledge the hurt.
(2) Resolve to forgive.
(3) Pray to release forgiveness to those who have hurt you and release blessings in their lives
Many of us got stuck on the 1st step that's why we cannot release forgiveness in our heart. There are two more steps and it takes FAITH in GOD to move to the next one. We must start and finish this strong so we’ll have peace in our hearts. Many of you might react: "WHAT?!? She already hurt me, I forgave her and now I am blessing her?!? No way!" --> This mentality is so wrong! The title of this blog is "FORGIVE and FORGET" and a lot of us are guilty of just doing one of these two words. This is not alien to me because at one point in time, I chose one and did not mind the other one then I say I moved on. NO! You cannot forgive if you have not forgotten what she did as well as you cannot forget is you do not forgive. It's hard to forget but pray that God takes it away from your heart. When we resist to forgive and forget, our hearts harden thus it becomes stone in the process but the Lord said "I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh." [Ezekiel 36:26] You cannot say that you have moved on but say that you do not forget. You SHOULD and MUST forget once you release forgiveness from your heart.
Sigh… I am just sad with the sight of these things happening within my yard and I am accountable to God that I will guide them properly and will enlighten them as they go through this battle and come out victorious still after the storm. Today, make that conscious decision. You will put this issue to rest; leave them alone and let them do their thing; cry out loud for one last time; stop pointing fingers to who is at fault and who we think is the victim. REMEMBER: If you point your finger to someone, the other 4 are pointing back at you. PRAY for forgiveness and compassion and LET GOD ARISE in the middle of this turmoil.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
[Blog] When you are hurt...
When we are hurt what do we do? Do you avenge? Do you fire back at them? Do you curse their lineage? Do you dump your friendship? Do you forgive and forget?
Most of us easily just do everything but forgive and forget. A lot of us would say that we forgive this person but will never forget what they did. If so, where's forgiveness then? A couple of weeks ago, during our T4V, we talked about forgiveness and how wonderful feeling can it give us once we practice doing so. However, as human beings, we just opt not to because we're hurt. One thing that struck me the most was that the reason why we cannot forgive is the fact that we just acknowledge that we are hurt that's why we cannot move on and by moving on means that we have to forgive first. We cannot do this the other way around. Just today, I felt a big thug in my heart for I was hurt by someone who is so dear to me. Without her knowing it, she did hurt me.
It all started when she hurt the people around our circle even those who are outside looking in and trying to get in to the impenetrable membrane of our group. She ripped them off their property and possession. I may sound very accusing but I know that there has been tarnished trust and damaged relationships. I would talk to her and verify if there's a sight of truth somewhere and she did but people are saying otherwise. I would in turn talk to each individual and they would say otherwise. At first, I gave her the benefit of the doubt that this person may have been a victim of a black propaganda however, as the week’s progress, names are popping out of no where and the stories are overwhelming.
One night, as I was preparing for work, I received a very concerning and alarming call from this person. She was ripped off by the sidewalk! I was so concerned about her and wanted to just get there to show support and to tell her that I'm here for her. When I stepped in, I went straight to her and made sure that I ask her how she was really and she said [while sobbing] that she's not okay. I hugged her and told her I'm here for her. The night progressed and I saw smirking look from a lot of people which I confirmed when one soul came up to me and told me that she doesn’t believe her. Of course, I asked what happened and what made her say her claim then the stories started pouring out. This person ripped off a lot of her friends and those outside looking in. I then talked to her what really happened so the cycle started all over.
Today, she's not here and people are waiting for her arrival because they are waiting for their prized possessions are returned to them but they failed. I confronted her through SMS and told her what's happening and all that but she gave me the entire alibi she can provide me. Towards the end of the day, the people gathered and I gathered more information about what went really wrong. As I try to dig deeper to the issue, I was still able to preserve my poise and kept my cool however, somewhere in my heart, I know that there are questions that I want her to answer. Then I and 3 more souls went up to take a little break when one of them said something that broke my heart. I cannot put things in detail but this person tarnished my integrity with our common ground. I know there's truth somewhere but what she said was totally unacceptable. I got my heart broken and checked my heart how's it doing now given these facts.
Honestly, I am deeply hurt but I don’t feel bad at all. I admit something went wrong down the road and there are a lot of favors that I did for her but shall I forgive her? YES and another YES for that. I don't want to get stuck on the fact that I am just hurt. I also want to move on because at the end of the day, she's still my sister in Christ. As mentioned in Matthew 6:12 "Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors." It was also mentioned in Luke 6:37 "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven." Who am I to judge? Who am I to condemn? Who am I not to forgive? Jesus Christ forgave us PERIOD. No IFs. No BUTs. He did not say "I will forgive you because you were good in giving your tithes and I will not forgive that person for he did not give his tithe." In God there is no uncertainty. He is unchanging so as His Love for us. Yes, I am hurt but I forgave her. I love her because Jesus loves me.
My heart may be hurting and crying right now but God will give me rest, calm me and ultimately will comfort me. I will forgive for this is what God did for me --- He forgave my past, present and future sins so who am I not to forgive?
Most of us easily just do everything but forgive and forget. A lot of us would say that we forgive this person but will never forget what they did. If so, where's forgiveness then? A couple of weeks ago, during our T4V, we talked about forgiveness and how wonderful feeling can it give us once we practice doing so. However, as human beings, we just opt not to because we're hurt. One thing that struck me the most was that the reason why we cannot forgive is the fact that we just acknowledge that we are hurt that's why we cannot move on and by moving on means that we have to forgive first. We cannot do this the other way around. Just today, I felt a big thug in my heart for I was hurt by someone who is so dear to me. Without her knowing it, she did hurt me.
It all started when she hurt the people around our circle even those who are outside looking in and trying to get in to the impenetrable membrane of our group. She ripped them off their property and possession. I may sound very accusing but I know that there has been tarnished trust and damaged relationships. I would talk to her and verify if there's a sight of truth somewhere and she did but people are saying otherwise. I would in turn talk to each individual and they would say otherwise. At first, I gave her the benefit of the doubt that this person may have been a victim of a black propaganda however, as the week’s progress, names are popping out of no where and the stories are overwhelming.
One night, as I was preparing for work, I received a very concerning and alarming call from this person. She was ripped off by the sidewalk! I was so concerned about her and wanted to just get there to show support and to tell her that I'm here for her. When I stepped in, I went straight to her and made sure that I ask her how she was really and she said [while sobbing] that she's not okay. I hugged her and told her I'm here for her. The night progressed and I saw smirking look from a lot of people which I confirmed when one soul came up to me and told me that she doesn’t believe her. Of course, I asked what happened and what made her say her claim then the stories started pouring out. This person ripped off a lot of her friends and those outside looking in. I then talked to her what really happened so the cycle started all over.
Today, she's not here and people are waiting for her arrival because they are waiting for their prized possessions are returned to them but they failed. I confronted her through SMS and told her what's happening and all that but she gave me the entire alibi she can provide me. Towards the end of the day, the people gathered and I gathered more information about what went really wrong. As I try to dig deeper to the issue, I was still able to preserve my poise and kept my cool however, somewhere in my heart, I know that there are questions that I want her to answer. Then I and 3 more souls went up to take a little break when one of them said something that broke my heart. I cannot put things in detail but this person tarnished my integrity with our common ground. I know there's truth somewhere but what she said was totally unacceptable. I got my heart broken and checked my heart how's it doing now given these facts.
Honestly, I am deeply hurt but I don’t feel bad at all. I admit something went wrong down the road and there are a lot of favors that I did for her but shall I forgive her? YES and another YES for that. I don't want to get stuck on the fact that I am just hurt. I also want to move on because at the end of the day, she's still my sister in Christ. As mentioned in Matthew 6:12 "Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors." It was also mentioned in Luke 6:37 "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven." Who am I to judge? Who am I to condemn? Who am I not to forgive? Jesus Christ forgave us PERIOD. No IFs. No BUTs. He did not say "I will forgive you because you were good in giving your tithes and I will not forgive that person for he did not give his tithe." In God there is no uncertainty. He is unchanging so as His Love for us. Yes, I am hurt but I forgave her. I love her because Jesus loves me.
My heart may be hurting and crying right now but God will give me rest, calm me and ultimately will comfort me. I will forgive for this is what God did for me --- He forgave my past, present and future sins so who am I not to forgive?
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
[Poem] YOU
I was down and felt so low
No one's gonna be there
No one's gonna find me there
No one would come to dare.
But You spoke to my heart
A whisper of hope and love
Like a streak of light in the dark
Like a ray of sun cut through the clouds.
You said You'll be there
You promised wherever I am You'd be there
No matter how far I have come
You got my future and my past.
People think and feel your absence
That they would only believe your existence
If they come face to face with you
To touch and feel you.
You said we should walk in faith
You said not by sight.
Not all we see is true
'Coz You are the only one I know is true.
You are the only God I know
You are the God who'd pick us from low.
You said you're coming back for us
To fulfill a promise you gave us.
There is only one YOU in this world
The living God with living word
You will fulfill your promise
And I will wait so I won't have it missed.
No one's gonna be there
No one's gonna find me there
No one would come to dare.
But You spoke to my heart
A whisper of hope and love
Like a streak of light in the dark
Like a ray of sun cut through the clouds.
You said You'll be there
You promised wherever I am You'd be there
No matter how far I have come
You got my future and my past.
People think and feel your absence
That they would only believe your existence
If they come face to face with you
To touch and feel you.
You said we should walk in faith
You said not by sight.
Not all we see is true
'Coz You are the only one I know is true.
You are the only God I know
You are the God who'd pick us from low.
You said you're coming back for us
To fulfill a promise you gave us.
There is only one YOU in this world
The living God with living word
You will fulfill your promise
And I will wait so I won't have it missed.
Friday, March 11, 2011
[Blog] GOD tamed my heart
Many times in our lives when we just want to do a lot of things and oftentimes, this happens during our teen years. Not with me. I had this episode not so long ago when I am not in my teen years anymore. I am the type of a person who does everything that pleases me. I rebel with whatever and whenever there are changes around me and I fight it til I breakdown. I remember one time when my previous boss told us that there will be changes in the way things are audited. Of course, me being rebellious and a non-fan of change, I just did not mind what she said. I fought it as if it’s a never ending battle every time but I always end up doing it anyway. Saturday is the deadline and Monday is the reports day where all the shenanigans and the nitty gritty side of my job happen. Since I don't want it, I do it on the reports day but my BFF told me to choose my battles. Take this task. I can never win the fight for it was a directive from the bosses. After so many sigh I aired out, they still won over my stubborn self for they are the bosses. The battle my friend was saying is the battle I felt fighting to all the time.
Taking years after that, one morning, it came to a point that God intervened in my life. Literally, I felt like the lost sheep whom He searched in the fields and when He found me, He put me on His shoulders then brought me home with Him. Back then I was like, "God must have big and sturdy back and shoulders for He was able to carry me around His neck without breaking it!" hehe.. Kidding aside, I really felt that. I was a lost sheep and when I was found, God gave me a better place to stay in - His shoulders - as if telling me that I am safe with Him as the song of Rivermaya goes "You'll be safe here.". The night after I went under the knife was the most important night of my life - my turning point. It was the night when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Just this weekend, someone approached and asked me how did I become a Christian and I answered, "I am a product of unending prayer of my friends." Then there were flashback of my previous life. Tears fell and thugs came from everywhere.
I had so many heart aches and heart breaks in life and the reason why I fight things before it's because that's the only way I know I can win things over. Unfortunately, I never did win any of it til I find myself worn out. Before, I thought being a Christian is a "jologs' kind of thing but it isn't. I admire my BFF for she is a good example of a disciplined Christian and I thought to myself that if I become a Christian, my life will be as boring as hers but I never had a boring step in my walk with Christ. Christ taught me a lot of things and these are the things I only learn from school - from the books - but never put that into practice so never that He had an effect in my life. Patience, Humility, Compassion, Love, Respect and a lot more did he teach me and up to now is still teaching me but the very first step to take is not to copy any of these then you'll experience Christ . It is in the act of surrender that is a sign of denial of one's self and letting God control our lives. It gives us such a liberating feel that gives us a worry-free feeling that you know someone got your back.
When I realized this, I suddenly feel the stillness inside me that I never thought of feeling at all in this lifetime. I thought that it will never happen and that people like my BFF are the ones who deserve this feeling but God is faithful and a loving God. He wants ALL of His children to experience such wonderful things in life - only the BEST - and ALL means including ME. With all these things given to you, would you still rebel and fight things hard? NO MORE. You should not anymore. You will learn how to respect your boss and his decisions for you know that God gave him that position to serve his purpose as a manager then follow him. You will learn how to care for your workmate then this shows compassion to them and then love comes after it. You will learn how to respect your parents for this pleases God and has been His command to honor them. My heart was tamed by God and there is nothing in this world that I would risk the kind of relationship I have with Him with something that is temporary and conditional. There's nothing I can compare a tamed heart with anything but a heart with God at the very center of it continuously improving the very me from what used to be a rebel.
For it is written in Matthew 17:20 -- "He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
Nothing is really impossible with God. I had little faith but God changed me and my rebel heart. I know God has a purpose in me and he started by taming my heart so I can serve my purpose well. So let God control you and wonderful things will happen.
Taking years after that, one morning, it came to a point that God intervened in my life. Literally, I felt like the lost sheep whom He searched in the fields and when He found me, He put me on His shoulders then brought me home with Him. Back then I was like, "God must have big and sturdy back and shoulders for He was able to carry me around His neck without breaking it!" hehe.. Kidding aside, I really felt that. I was a lost sheep and when I was found, God gave me a better place to stay in - His shoulders - as if telling me that I am safe with Him as the song of Rivermaya goes "You'll be safe here.". The night after I went under the knife was the most important night of my life - my turning point. It was the night when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Just this weekend, someone approached and asked me how did I become a Christian and I answered, "I am a product of unending prayer of my friends." Then there were flashback of my previous life. Tears fell and thugs came from everywhere.
I had so many heart aches and heart breaks in life and the reason why I fight things before it's because that's the only way I know I can win things over. Unfortunately, I never did win any of it til I find myself worn out. Before, I thought being a Christian is a "jologs' kind of thing but it isn't. I admire my BFF for she is a good example of a disciplined Christian and I thought to myself that if I become a Christian, my life will be as boring as hers but I never had a boring step in my walk with Christ. Christ taught me a lot of things and these are the things I only learn from school - from the books - but never put that into practice so never that He had an effect in my life. Patience, Humility, Compassion, Love, Respect and a lot more did he teach me and up to now is still teaching me but the very first step to take is not to copy any of these then you'll experience Christ . It is in the act of surrender that is a sign of denial of one's self and letting God control our lives. It gives us such a liberating feel that gives us a worry-free feeling that you know someone got your back.
When I realized this, I suddenly feel the stillness inside me that I never thought of feeling at all in this lifetime. I thought that it will never happen and that people like my BFF are the ones who deserve this feeling but God is faithful and a loving God. He wants ALL of His children to experience such wonderful things in life - only the BEST - and ALL means including ME. With all these things given to you, would you still rebel and fight things hard? NO MORE. You should not anymore. You will learn how to respect your boss and his decisions for you know that God gave him that position to serve his purpose as a manager then follow him. You will learn how to care for your workmate then this shows compassion to them and then love comes after it. You will learn how to respect your parents for this pleases God and has been His command to honor them. My heart was tamed by God and there is nothing in this world that I would risk the kind of relationship I have with Him with something that is temporary and conditional. There's nothing I can compare a tamed heart with anything but a heart with God at the very center of it continuously improving the very me from what used to be a rebel.
For it is written in Matthew 17:20 -- "He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
Nothing is really impossible with God. I had little faith but God changed me and my rebel heart. I know God has a purpose in me and he started by taming my heart so I can serve my purpose well. So let God control you and wonderful things will happen.
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