You promised of not leaving me,
Yet in return I ran away from thee.
You ensured grace and mercy upon me,
Yet I hold back my tenth from thee.
You assured healing of our weakling body
Yet we don't ask for it boldly.
You assured of my family's restoration,
Yet my heart wanted emancipation.
You secured me a bright and blessed future
Yet I did things my way as I mature.
You loved me for who and what I am
Yet I relied on how good You made me of now that I am.
My heart is crushed oh Lord,
Knowing what You have done at the cross
You gave your life to mankind
While we are sinning and do not mind.
Lord, why did you endure the pain?
Why not those who put you in vain?
Why did you have to die
If up to now people would lie?
What You put Yourself through,
Is something not the strongest can do.
Do you think it's worth it
Even if You do not gain out of it?
You answered, "My child, I was who the Prophets foretold of coming,
I am the One prophesied hanging at the cross dying,
I am the One who is the sent by the Father for you,
I am the One whose blood will be shed for you."
Hearing this I come kneeling before You,
I bow my head before You,
I am so sorry Lord that I questioned You
And all I ask is forgiveness from You.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
[Blog] When lies cannot lie anymore
Many times in our lives we tend to hide things by wrapping it with lies. We thought that the more layers we put around us, the more we get secured with the lies. We form a sort of a cushion so we can be protected. Least we know that the more the layers of lie we cover the truth with, the heavier it gets as you go along your way that if you walk with that heavy thing, you'd realize it's starting to wear off you and truth starts to unveil. Come clean my friend and do not waste your youth to these lies for it will come running back at you.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
[Blog] iAsk
Has God recently answered your questions or at least one of your questions? If so, how did you feel about it? Recently, God answered one of my prayers and it was good. If you ask me if there are still a lot of those that have not been answered, my answer is YES. I remember my friend Joice retweeted RickWarren's post saying: "Four possible answers to your prayers: Yes, No, Wait, &You've got to be kidding!" Indeed, those are the type of answers we get from God. Unlike with our friends, you would hear their answers but with God, you would have to wait for the answers without hearing or seeing it. That's what you call faith. It's believing on something that you don't see, hear or feel.
Yesterday, as I hear the Word of God, He illuminated in me that I should keep on asking Him questions that no matter how hard the questions we may have still God is Great and He has the answer for all of them. As I listen to PRH, he simplified what the Prophet Habakkuk wants to say in his preaching that gave me a change of hearts when it comes to dealing with my faith with God.
(1) He went FIRST to God. Many times we use all of our power to finish something or to fight on something. We most of the time say, "I can do this" or "I will have that because I did you a favor". These are prideful statements saying that we are in control of everything that happens in our lives. When we get what we want, we celebrate and sometimes forget to thank the one who blessed us with that gift. But when we fail, we blame God for not doing anything. Look back, what really happened in the process? Did you fight it so hard to make it happen? And now that we fail we blame God? What we have done supposed to be the other way around. We should have come to Him first and ask to come and help you deal with these things. Just like what Prophet Habakkuk did - he went first to God to ask for anything he has in mind.
(2) He brought his questions to God. In his book, he asked these questions, "How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?", "Why do you make me look at injustice?" and "Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?" Up to these days, these are the same questions we have for God. We may be living in a different time but just like God, our questions are the same. We ask why good things happen to the wicked while you are trying your best to live a Christ-like life. We ask why the bad people are rich when you are faithfully giving your tithes every time. We ask why others who do not deserve a promotion gets the job they want yet you keep your loyalty to your boss and follow every instruction he has for you yet you are still in the same position. We most of the time ask these questions to our friends and get their opinion or worst, we read our daily horoscope to see what's out there for us. The cards and the card reader may say something but how can these be trusted when God is the eternal truth. We raise our questions to our friends to get their opinion for something but why don't come to God and ask these questions? He has the answers to all of our questions and that I am pretty sure of that.
(3) He stayed with God. How many of you can honestly say to me that you stay with God no matter how difficult the situation is or if you have found a solution to your problem your way? I am not an exception on this. There are still things that I do my way and when I feel like giving up I cry out to God for help but would I leave? NO. He is my rock. He is my refuge. He is my comfort. He is my strength. So I'd stay where there's sturdiness in the grip.
A lot of questions were unearthed upon hearing the good news from God. I thought I have asked God so many questions and that he reads what's in my heart but I still came to Him and asked more questions. I lift up to Him what is in my heart. Every single question I have in the farthest part of my brain and the deepest of my heart. I know He will answer me in His time and I am anticipating for that time to come soon. I am contented with the renewed mercy and grace He gives me everyday and the rest are just bonuses of His given life for me.
Yesterday, as I hear the Word of God, He illuminated in me that I should keep on asking Him questions that no matter how hard the questions we may have still God is Great and He has the answer for all of them. As I listen to PRH, he simplified what the Prophet Habakkuk wants to say in his preaching that gave me a change of hearts when it comes to dealing with my faith with God.
(1) He went FIRST to God. Many times we use all of our power to finish something or to fight on something. We most of the time say, "I can do this" or "I will have that because I did you a favor". These are prideful statements saying that we are in control of everything that happens in our lives. When we get what we want, we celebrate and sometimes forget to thank the one who blessed us with that gift. But when we fail, we blame God for not doing anything. Look back, what really happened in the process? Did you fight it so hard to make it happen? And now that we fail we blame God? What we have done supposed to be the other way around. We should have come to Him first and ask to come and help you deal with these things. Just like what Prophet Habakkuk did - he went first to God to ask for anything he has in mind.
(2) He brought his questions to God. In his book, he asked these questions, "How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?", "Why do you make me look at injustice?" and "Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?" Up to these days, these are the same questions we have for God. We may be living in a different time but just like God, our questions are the same. We ask why good things happen to the wicked while you are trying your best to live a Christ-like life. We ask why the bad people are rich when you are faithfully giving your tithes every time. We ask why others who do not deserve a promotion gets the job they want yet you keep your loyalty to your boss and follow every instruction he has for you yet you are still in the same position. We most of the time ask these questions to our friends and get their opinion or worst, we read our daily horoscope to see what's out there for us. The cards and the card reader may say something but how can these be trusted when God is the eternal truth. We raise our questions to our friends to get their opinion for something but why don't come to God and ask these questions? He has the answers to all of our questions and that I am pretty sure of that.
(3) He stayed with God. How many of you can honestly say to me that you stay with God no matter how difficult the situation is or if you have found a solution to your problem your way? I am not an exception on this. There are still things that I do my way and when I feel like giving up I cry out to God for help but would I leave? NO. He is my rock. He is my refuge. He is my comfort. He is my strength. So I'd stay where there's sturdiness in the grip.
A lot of questions were unearthed upon hearing the good news from God. I thought I have asked God so many questions and that he reads what's in my heart but I still came to Him and asked more questions. I lift up to Him what is in my heart. Every single question I have in the farthest part of my brain and the deepest of my heart. I know He will answer me in His time and I am anticipating for that time to come soon. I am contented with the renewed mercy and grace He gives me everyday and the rest are just bonuses of His given life for me.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
[Blog] I am uniquely made by GOD
July is near and I am turning two very soon but before I even joined the boat, I vowed to myself that I will change everything in me. I vowed to let them inside and make them part of my decision. I promised that mine will be the happiest and the least stressed of all. Indeed, it happened and we have always been called out because of our boldness. All that we had was that boldness. We never hit the target but we remained to be seen as the happiest and the least stressed. Wait up... Did I say it twice? Yes, I did to put stress to what I was saying. LOL.
Fast forward, I got a different prayer at the start of the year. I went to the mountain to re-commit myself to God about the change. As mentioned in one of my blogs, I met someone last year who was a dear advocate of change. She was very radical that's why the changes that she has done before, everyone is now reaping the fruits of it. I drew that line of division once again and the ground rules are put up once more. It took a toll on me when I pushed myself to do the right thing. I skipped a day and told Mr. M that I was not feeling well. The following day I sent him an SMS telling him that I will be coming in later. After a period of silence from him, I sent him another one confessing why I was feeling sick. That day was very important for me for I asked my prayer warriors to mum their prayers for me for it was really taking its toll on me. I felt like I was fighting what was natural in me.
Four months had passed and I believe I was able to clean up my own yard and I felt that I have started a new life. However, I have this kind of hole in me. It's like an abyss. A never ending deep of the ocean. Their laughters were gone. The warmth has been extinguished. The bond was broken. I knew that the house was grumbling down and I did not see that coming. I did a weather check and I know what will I be hearing from them. I asked God, am I taking it to the extreme? Have I gone mad? Have I gone bad? Have I gone too far? Have I been unfair? Have I forgotten how to really care for these people? I was hurt, broken and disheartened but I made them what they are right now.
Looking back, the relationships I tried to put up were ruined and I dunno where should I start building again. I have God on my side and He will restore every single thing that has been ruined in me. One Sunday, I dropped by at the Victory bookstore and browsed through the books that they have on the shelves. I saw and stopped at a book that looks familiar to me. Aha! It was the book once mentioned in one of PRH's preachings. The book is entiitled: "You were born unique, so don't die a copy" by John Mason. God illuminated in me that I should be me. I should be the real me in dealing with things. I remember what I said before that we will be different then it struck me, I just became like everyone else. I felt like I did not give premium to what God has stored up in me. He reminded me that He created me unique and I should be what He created me to be. He spoke to me and told me that i still can be "just" at the same time "unique" and "happy" as I have been created.
Thank you, Lord for making me unique and I will finish my race unique as You have made me.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
[Blog] It's all about Jesus
Our lives is a work of art so why are we not giving premium to it? Yes, we may have clothed ourselves with fine jewelry, we may have bought the most expensive dresses and packed our things up in an LV bag but is this how we give premium to life? By putting a front on ourself?
It was said in the Scripture, "For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given. And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Of the increase of His government and peace there will be no end. Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom, to order it and establish it with judgment and justice from that time forward, even forever. " (Isaiah 9:6-7) This prophecy has been fulfilled in the New Testament saying, "And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bring forth a Son, and shall call His name Jesus. He will be great, and will be called the Son of the Highest; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David. " (Luke 1:31-32) The promise of God that He will send the Prince of Peace who will bring forth justice forward to forever.
Not so long ago, hmmmmm.... about 2,000 years actually, there was a man who walked the streets of Israel who said to be the Son of God. His name is Jesus. He did a lot of miracles here and there. He taught His disciples through parables. He fought religions. He is what the prophets in the Old Testament prophesied of coming. He is the one we have been waiting for. Fast forward, He died on the cross to wash away the sins of the world. This is how God gave premium to our salvation. God the Father sent forth His Son to shed His blood to pay for our sins. This is what is PREMIUM is all about. A prize. An award.Something offered free. These are some of the definitions of that word. He offered His son to pay premium for the salvation of His creation.
To date, Jesus still lives and sits at the right hand of the Father. (Acts 2:33a) God the Father may have sent another Counselor - the Holy Spirit - who will teach us all things and who will remind us of everything Jesus said to us (John 14:26), we still cannot discount the fact that one day, in the olden days, there was a man who was prophesied to be the God, Wonderful, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace who died on the cross to pay for our sins. Look back. Pause and think for a while. Have I given that man who died on the cross premium attention? Have we given that man a fraction of our precious time? Have we given that man a premium seat in our lives? We do not have to shed more blood for Him for He is enough. What He did on the cross is enough proof of His everlasting love for us. His death on the cross is the ultimate showcase of God's care for our salvation. This life is not about us. What we have is not about us. What we still can have is not about us. It is about Jesus who made it good for us. Enjoy the life He gave us and make the most out of His divine gift for us.
God bless us all!
It was said in the Scripture, "For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given. And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Of the increase of His government and peace there will be no end. Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom, to order it and establish it with judgment and justice from that time forward, even forever. " (Isaiah 9:6-7) This prophecy has been fulfilled in the New Testament saying, "And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bring forth a Son, and shall call His name Jesus. He will be great, and will be called the Son of the Highest; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David. " (Luke 1:31-32) The promise of God that He will send the Prince of Peace who will bring forth justice forward to forever.
Not so long ago, hmmmmm.... about 2,000 years actually, there was a man who walked the streets of Israel who said to be the Son of God. His name is Jesus. He did a lot of miracles here and there. He taught His disciples through parables. He fought religions. He is what the prophets in the Old Testament prophesied of coming. He is the one we have been waiting for. Fast forward, He died on the cross to wash away the sins of the world. This is how God gave premium to our salvation. God the Father sent forth His Son to shed His blood to pay for our sins. This is what is PREMIUM is all about. A prize. An award.Something offered free. These are some of the definitions of that word. He offered His son to pay premium for the salvation of His creation.
To date, Jesus still lives and sits at the right hand of the Father. (Acts 2:33a) God the Father may have sent another Counselor - the Holy Spirit - who will teach us all things and who will remind us of everything Jesus said to us (John 14:26), we still cannot discount the fact that one day, in the olden days, there was a man who was prophesied to be the God, Wonderful, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace who died on the cross to pay for our sins. Look back. Pause and think for a while. Have I given that man who died on the cross premium attention? Have we given that man a fraction of our precious time? Have we given that man a premium seat in our lives? We do not have to shed more blood for Him for He is enough. What He did on the cross is enough proof of His everlasting love for us. His death on the cross is the ultimate showcase of God's care for our salvation. This life is not about us. What we have is not about us. What we still can have is not about us. It is about Jesus who made it good for us. Enjoy the life He gave us and make the most out of His divine gift for us.
God bless us all!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
[Blog] God loves you
GOD LOVES YOU. This is a simple message yet is oftentimes not easily understood. I remember once a friend asked me "is He enough?" With boldness I answered, YES! He is enough though my life is not perfect and that I still experience heart aches and the like, I know that I have a God who will be there to come and rescue me. One time, another set of friends asked me if I am happy. I said I am. They insisted that I don't look like one and when I asked if it's because I do not a boyfriend then they got perked up and suddenly got interested in knowing more about my answer. I thought to myself if I tell them that God makes me happy, how will they react to it? Will I be mocked and all that? But nonetheless, I answered them that it was God who makes me happy. I have this kind of peace in my heart that no one would be able to understand. God makes me happy and I have this confidant whom I can say anything that is in my heart. A boyfriend would not be able to understand what I am going through. For once, he might be coming from another industry or that he has a different angle of understanding than mine then there’s fight once more. Can you stand a relationship like that? God just loves me and that’s all that I need.
Just more than a month ago, a friend’s heart just got broken and until now, I know that she is still hurting even if she would not tell me about it but God’s always there for us to comfort and love us above all. I remember once I told her, that thing happened to her maybe because God is saying something to her. She maybe too busy attending to her own issues and forgets that there is a God who is just waiting for her to come to. I do not have the mind of God but what impressed in my heart is that God is a jealous God (Deuteronomy 6:15) and what takes our time off from Him, He takes away from us. Painful but true. I feel that she had given this person so much time and that she focused her attention to him but one day, he’s gone. As human beings we are conformed by the fact that when we have someone in our lives – a better half that is – but we neglect God’s presence in our lives. He is a God that loves us unconditionally no matter how many mistakes have we had already, He will love us period. That person may be a better half to you but God is the best partner we could ever ask for.
So many times in the past I asked if God can hear my prayers, my cry, my plea. Is He listening to me? If so, why is He not answering them? It is because I am too busy finding for the solution to my problems. I run after the possible solution to them. I run towards the people I can call to ease the pain and the suffering but I run away from God for i thought He is not listening to me and He is too busy to handle my issues. A realization came in and I realized why not come to Him and cry your heart to Him? I am not saying that I go to Him all the time. I slip a lot of times but we have to make a conscious effort to go back to Him. He is the Great I AM. He is everything that we ask and need in our lives. So love life and our heart aches are just small stuff for Him to take care of for He takes care of everything we can possibly imagine.
I am just at awe on how amazing my God is. I pray that you experience this too.
Just more than a month ago, a friend’s heart just got broken and until now, I know that she is still hurting even if she would not tell me about it but God’s always there for us to comfort and love us above all. I remember once I told her, that thing happened to her maybe because God is saying something to her. She maybe too busy attending to her own issues and forgets that there is a God who is just waiting for her to come to. I do not have the mind of God but what impressed in my heart is that God is a jealous God (Deuteronomy 6:15) and what takes our time off from Him, He takes away from us. Painful but true. I feel that she had given this person so much time and that she focused her attention to him but one day, he’s gone. As human beings we are conformed by the fact that when we have someone in our lives – a better half that is – but we neglect God’s presence in our lives. He is a God that loves us unconditionally no matter how many mistakes have we had already, He will love us period. That person may be a better half to you but God is the best partner we could ever ask for.
So many times in the past I asked if God can hear my prayers, my cry, my plea. Is He listening to me? If so, why is He not answering them? It is because I am too busy finding for the solution to my problems. I run after the possible solution to them. I run towards the people I can call to ease the pain and the suffering but I run away from God for i thought He is not listening to me and He is too busy to handle my issues. A realization came in and I realized why not come to Him and cry your heart to Him? I am not saying that I go to Him all the time. I slip a lot of times but we have to make a conscious effort to go back to Him. He is the Great I AM. He is everything that we ask and need in our lives. So love life and our heart aches are just small stuff for Him to take care of for He takes care of everything we can possibly imagine.
I am just at awe on how amazing my God is. I pray that you experience this too.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
[Blog] Great I AM
I just watched a video of New Life Worship team and it reminded me that our God is the Great I AM. What is the significance of this in our lives? Often when we pray as if we are doubting God id He is able to give us whatever we need. Time and again I mentioned that the Lord is bigger and greater than anything walks on earth. If He is the great I am, what then is He really?
He is our Lord - above everything on earth; healer - He heals every wound and all kinds of sickness; Savior - bought our sins by dying at the cross; provider - He gives us our daily bread; restorer - He puts back broken relationships in one whole piece once again; father - He is our dad from heaven; friend - He will never leave us nor forsake us; brother - he is the best brother who will be there to protect you when you are troubled; companion - you will never walk this earth alone anymore; lover - He will love you unconditionally; confidant - He listens to us every time we whine and He never judge us. He is everything!
He is what we ask Him to be. He is just GREAT!
He is our Lord - above everything on earth; healer - He heals every wound and all kinds of sickness; Savior - bought our sins by dying at the cross; provider - He gives us our daily bread; restorer - He puts back broken relationships in one whole piece once again; father - He is our dad from heaven; friend - He will never leave us nor forsake us; brother - he is the best brother who will be there to protect you when you are troubled; companion - you will never walk this earth alone anymore; lover - He will love you unconditionally; confidant - He listens to us every time we whine and He never judge us. He is everything!
He is what we ask Him to be. He is just GREAT!
Monday, May 2, 2011
[Blog] YOU are the GOD Most High
When things are not happening the way we want it to be, we often use our full power to make them happen. Even if in the end, we end up panting in tireness just to make sure that it does happen. I am no exception to this. It is in our nature that we want that project to be done meticulously. We want that calibration done 100% accurate. We want our lives spotless and all other things that we worry about. But have you tried pausing for a while and just cry out to God for help? Are you not glad to know that we have a God that we can always turn to who makes things POSSIBLE for us? Even the most impossible there is in the world can happen if we ask HIM. Well of course with the exception of those that will harm other people and those that we will not make you a better person, EVERYTHING that your hearts desire shall be given to you.
As said in James 4:3, "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." Be aware that our God knows what our hearts really has to say. We may say that we want this and that but HE knows that it is otherwise. We have to ask conscienciously with a pure heart things that we want God to bless us with. For out of the overflow of our heart our mouth speaks. [Luke 6:45b] I love the verse in Luke 11:9 "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Who does not want to have a GOD like that? The door will be opened to us when we ask and knock. WHEW! I dunno about you but I am very happy to serve this kind of GOD. He is my God, my Lord, my Savior, my King, my Rock, my EVERYTHING.
Come on now! Know this God I tell you who will give you rest and who has bought your sins by shedding blood and dying at the cross.
GOD be exalted!
As said in James 4:3, "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." Be aware that our God knows what our hearts really has to say. We may say that we want this and that but HE knows that it is otherwise. We have to ask conscienciously with a pure heart things that we want God to bless us with. For out of the overflow of our heart our mouth speaks. [Luke 6:45b] I love the verse in Luke 11:9 "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Who does not want to have a GOD like that? The door will be opened to us when we ask and knock. WHEW! I dunno about you but I am very happy to serve this kind of GOD. He is my God, my Lord, my Savior, my King, my Rock, my EVERYTHING.
Come on now! Know this God I tell you who will give you rest and who has bought your sins by shedding blood and dying at the cross.
GOD be exalted!
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